I don’t remember being this disenfranchised 5 years ago when the party I had supported for years entered into an ill-advised coalition with the Conservatives.
As a supporter of a working system of Proportional Representation, I’ve never really been happy with the British electoral system. At best first past the post is a pseudo-democracy and at worst it is a form of dictatorship to those who do not support the leading party.
Last night, as I followed the frighteningly accurate Exit Polls, a sense of deep dystopic foreboding filled me.
Refusing to be sucked into a night of tooth-gnashing angst, I tried to sleep.
My dreams were riddled with allegories: Caledonian warriors defecting from union armies and assisting the enemy in subjugating the masses – that kind of thing.
I woke around 3am, something that seems to be happening more and more these days, and the results were still too early to call. Conservative, Labour and SNP all at a similar level.
When I rose again, later that morning, the Conservatives were on a clear path to victory. With only a handful of seats to tally, the outcome was touted as being pretty much a done deal – and that is when the shock set in.
This is my fifth General Election, I was a year and a bit too young when John Major won a Tory victory back in 1992.
Today, more than any other post-polling day, I feel like my voice has been discarded.
The party I support have a small percentage of the vote, a similar percentage to another party.
At this stage in the tally, my party have a single seat and yet the other has over 50; how is that fair and democratic?
Worse than that, I have a genuine sense of being lied to.
I appreciate that my social circle are predominantly liberal/socialist and so my world view is coloured a kind of orangey-green but are there really that many Conservative voters out there?
When I campaigned for the Liberal Democrats 5 years ago, the general doorstep feedback was pro-Labour but my constituency remains a solid blue.
For the security of the voter, voting is anonymous but how, then, do I know that the votes tallied are genuine?
For all I know the figures were set well in advance of the election; exit polls could just as easily be rigged as they retain the same anonymity.
I’m not saying that I 100% support this theory of electoral conspiracy but I find it difficult to push the possibility from the front of my mind.
So here I am, on the first day of the New Dystopia, shackled with the illusion of a free and democratic society, ready for another 5 years of tyrannical rule.
So long NHS, I’ll miss the Insulin more than you might think.